It Starts...

Its 2 hours away from the bet and I'm not ready. Can I really outgo my fellow friends? No fondling alone is pretty damn hard. Now when I have those spare minutes of time I'll need to do something else. Maybe I'll read a book or something. Maybe I'll work out. I've been meaning to do that for a good few years now. If things all of a sudden go better for me then maybe I'll never do it again until everyone else loses. If I become a rage-aholic and threaten to kill people then I'll have no choice and return to my dirty deed. We'll all see how this plays out. It's anyones game in the world of self-control and dignity.